a journey through my testimonials;
mostly were eyesores while when your testimonials appeared;
it wasn't pain at all. but instead healed it.
page 475 testimonials of alvin watermelonAK.
hope that you remember.

i read through your blog.
i read through your testimonials.
it seems that the most memories remains there.

i can't take it.
the memories are crawling back to me.

Waiting Game

You and me

A little different

Though we tried to stay the same

It never leaves

And when it changes it is still a waiting game

I wait for a lonely breath

I wait to surface from this death

Wait for the light to come

And take away these images I get

In my head

More than ever

I need to feel you

More than ever

I see the real you

You are me

A worst disaster would be waking up alone

Now we're free

We're drifting out

Like all the ones we didn't know

I wait for a silent tear

I wait for things to disappear

Wait for the ground to stop moving underneath my only fear

If I lose you I don't know

More than ever

I need to feel you

It's all around

More than ever

I see the real you

And it surrounds

Everything, everything

We've had

Out of sight out of mind

Given that

What I see when I dream

Hurts like hell and back

a promise that i made.
i broke it.
i'm sorry;
please let me revive that prmise .
between me and you.

i told you i want back that feeling;
yet you shrug it off.
and now i dunno what's on your mind.

enlighten me please.

Follow the notes upon a journey

At first sight marks one's destiny

Once the voyage comes to an end

Return lies within hasty key

BORED- TIRED- HURT.
SORRY;

to my dearest godbrother;
you know who you are; and hopefully you actually visit here.

okays; lets forget and go on our seprate ways .
hope you find your happiness. (:

wake me up when september ends;

you were my heroine.

you get there before i do?.
what do you mean? x=
jst curious.
and i am willing to wait. countdown.
30days. to go.

yeah. you knw wht isit anyways. hahas.
1month to my birthday.
2months to your's.

Only One
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up) I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only oneI let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only oneI let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one

I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

Still a yellow card fan.
and this's my favourite song.

alvinkang__`

5oth post.
1 reason to be happy.
1 reason to be free.
and thus. i am a freeman - to - be.
i gna quit prefects soon(:

i jst need 1 more reason to make it all perfect.

what do you wish for me to do to get back that same feelings again?.
alvinkang__`

you're choosing to forget then.
its okays.
i'll be alone. for awhile.
and yeah. i need to study too.
alvinkang__`

freedom.
i have all the time in the world.
and can wait.
alvinkang_`

i know it took me long. i made you wait.
and your feelings faded when i finally talked.
sigh. its okay.

go find your hapiness.
till then.
i can accept reality.

i was afraid.
i am sorry.
i can wait.

i do not feel the same with anyone else. i guess.
and this will be the third time if you really do ask again.
and i hope it's on that day.

i want to wait.
wait and wait.
when the time's right.
and for the last year; i'm seriously sorry.
all the times that i hurted you;

i just want to wait.
to wait.
to wait.
and to wait.

i guess all will be right; if you follow your heart once again.
but sigh. nw is not the time. you know what i mean?.
i'm quite unhappy nw. guess why.
change that once to now.

and for the time?.
i guess i was naive in earning money.
greedy huh?.
i regretted that choice throughout my worklife.

you'll knw when to ask me. if you want.
or you can jst talk to me. yeah.
you don't have to be so mean. hahas.
and ans me. thr msn or smthing.
if you want.
sigh; why're you liddat?.

mission?

Rules Of The Mission(?)Rules of the Game: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks.Woot! Now wat m i gonna do? I've got a bad memory, cant even remember wat i've ate this morning. But nevertheless i shall try to recall! =)


1) i have two beds. whenever i sleep on the upper bed. i will roll and drop till the bottom bed and thus. not hurt myself ^^ funny habit.

2)i eat alot alot alot. and nv ever exercised much(ask my friends) as i always play com game. and then i dont even grow fat. jealous anyone?

3) i am wildly emo. when i am emo. i can do anything crazy. and when i am not. i am totally quiet.(like when i am always at home alone) unless i hear a emo song or feel emo i go dancing around the house

4) i am too lazy to watch tv. as my tv in the room is spoilt. and i enjoy playing the com better. unless if i get a 30inch flat screen in my room, i will nv watch much tv.

5)i spend a average of $10 a day on food (which is 66% of my pocket money, go figure)

6)my attitude change with different people. like i will talk differently if i am with this group of people and will laugh funnily with this group, or talk nonsense with another group. so i am a 'chameleon'

7)i am a perfectionist. where i like everything to be neat on me. when i go out ;
at home i am like garbage -.- my room is so messed up that you might tripped over something when you walk into my room

8)i am very sensitive. (for a tough guy like me -.-)i make note of every single important thing that i do. (like some mission liddat =.=)

9)i want to be a cook (:

10) i enjoy reading. uh-huh. don't seem like right. xD
i read everyday!~



As for the next 6 set of fortunate(or unfortunate) ppl who have to do:
1) kia yang
2)gabriel sng
3)ian ng
4)marianne
5)you know who you are(the person i am talking through blog)
6)yilin mei~

nothing wrong with me.
but why choose my birthday anyways last year? .
i'm curious. and why you think about it again . now.
you know there's reasons and it's not alright to ask now.

if you think i don't know.
then you're wrong.
don't wait for my birthday again.

don't dread about the past.
what's present. is present.
if you want to talk to me. jst talk.
i'll be there for you to talk to.
alvinkang__`

sigh;

i dunno whether it is a good or bad decision to be with you in the first place.
now that i think about it. i regretted alot of things. sigh.
but things cannot be changed. it's too far to be changed nw. but i still dunno if you care for me. like what i do. it's not the words that shows. it's the actions. but i do not know do you have it for me? .
am i jst too ill fated? sigh. i hope that things will turn out naturally. and that all'll be right.

to who you think you are;
i haven't forgotten you.

alvinkang__`

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

lols. so long nv blog . like bursting long,. yeah .z zz zz -.-
nowadays also nothing much to describe. zz
yeah.
this
blog
is
gonna
die
if
i
keep
on
ignorning
it. lol
^^. whatever. shall blog when something comes into my head

BOO`

hellos. so long nv blog(:
shall write it in japanese. or so called translated it-.-''

hellos (: 今日は退屈していた。 ええ。 次にしばらくのための得られたnccそして私は何人かの人々と食べることを行った。 (:今日は申し分なくあった。 clbのpplが付いているponnedクラスおよびyicongおよびサンダース。 かなりlolsのxDの楽しみ。わかりました。 出かけることがそれからより多くの楽しみである時明日望みなさい。 buhbyesの` 誕生日おめでとうのお父さん alvinkangの`の< 3彼女



try to understand then xD
alvinkang__` <3her (: