rahhs. okays!
today i woke up at 10 suppose go gym with ky.
but then nv go cos he was at sch doing something.
hahas. rahh =D lalalals. so ltr i was suppose to go out with esther . yet nv go out again
x_x haahs but then ltr after awhile around 240++ i went out with ky.
suppose catch the movie the seeker at 3.10 but then too late =x cannot watch ahahas
no more nice movies then ltr we went to buy fries from mos burger. then ltr went to lan for 1 hour before going gym. another hour then.
then went to food court and had dinner =x
yeah. thats all that happened today!
hahas =D lalalals (:
alvinkang__`

hahas!
today was mad x=
i woke up at 8. went t meet hwang,cher and ck at northpoint x=/
went to ic there . around 11+ was at bugis. then the girls had to leave x=
hahas. =x lalas. so me and hwang went to the bishan gym .. wheeeeee
x= worked out somehow. kinda tired. but feel the muscles somehow gonna pop out =D
hahahas. xP. so yea. then ltr me and hwang went to jeremy ho's house. x=
hwang went mad playing wii. i was losing to him like pig x=
ahahas. then kinda fun. went to mum shop after that. didnt do much.
then came home lors =x
hahaas. now i am here. gonna play ky's dk le x=
=D help him lvl tday((: make him happier =D

anyways i go le =x=x/
buhbyes =D tc.
ahahas. i wann that suprise to be special for you bahs. x=
lalalalalas.~ x_x

lalalas
okay i am going gym tmr.
need comfirm time only
-_- who interested can msg me or something.
afternoon ++
no mornings!
blah x=
alvinkang__`

okayys.
so now i have come to update
finally changed to a more human blogskin.
instead of those clowns skin given by blogger.
ahahahs =D blah. >_<
so.. today after i blogged.
i went to have lunch with shaun and his dad. x= ate mad jack
super big burger. called blue moutain chicken burger !
omg lah. the height of a glass cup >_<
hahas. and then came home talked on msn blah blah.
ate spring chicken for dinner D:
hahas. >_<
now super full. blahs . xD
done for today..
alvinkang__`

anyone wants me to link. tell me . . -_-

alvinkang__`

hellooos here to blog le x=
saturday:
went to collect report slip. nth much happen.
then went home watched monster and secret. then ltr talk all the way on msn till 1am -_-
thts all. x=

sunday:
today. just woke up . -_-
nothing happened. ltr if got something happen then i blog again x=
=D and soooooo.
chelsea pawned manchester city 6-0 =D
pawnzx
((:

alvinkang__`

a song before i begin.
Five Becomes Four


Needed some time
So I could find
A little strength to redefine
What I've become
What I have done
I never asked to be the one


I'm riding it out
This storm that you brought in
Bringing it down
One me around
For you, I'd go again


It's gotta be
Easy to see
What everyone takes out of me
Knocking me down
Dragging me out
How did you end up in that ground?


Did you run away?
Did you fall apart?
Did you see yourself
For what you are?
Will you be looking for it anymore
When five becomes four?
When you're all alone
With the melody
Do you close your eyes
And think of me?
Will you'll still hear me singing anymore
When five becomes four?

Try and put aside
Your history and pride
Maybe for one
Moment in time
We'll all be on your side


The story goes
Nobody knows
What it was like when you were through
Someone who cared
Out in the air
Didn't let them crash down anywhere


Did you run away?
Did you fall apart?
Did you see yourself
For what you are?
Will you be looking for it anymore
When five becomes four?
When you're all alone
With the melody
Do you close your eyes
And think of me?
Will you'll still hear me singing anymore
When five becomes four?


Remember the lie
Never said I
You were the reason I survived
Where did you go?
I need to knowI waited here, you never showed
It's gonna beHarder for me
I can't forgive so many things
When you were down
I was around
Why would you try and hurt me now?
Just tell me why
Just tell me why


(Did you run away?)
(Did you run away?)
(Did you run away?)


Did you run away?
Did you fall apart?
Did you see yourself
For what you are?
Will you be looking for it anymore
When five becomes four?
When you're all alone
With the melody
Do you close your eyes
And think of me?
Will you'll still hear me singing anymore
When five becomes four?
When five becomes four
When five becomes four






this song was sent to me by kiayang.
haha when listening to it
i guess it might mean about my life but then yet again not
i want to find the true meaning of my existence.
why i bother. but then. i guess that all these questions are left unknown until when i am about to die.
i really hope that what i wished for nowadays will happen.
friends have being supportive of me dropping to normal.
and they really encouraged me. and didn't put me in a spot whereas i am lower standard then them.
to me friends are still friends. true friends do not lie. and i do truly have true friends (=

okays about today
end of sch. i had fun. class party in class. had fun. then i had end of turn assembly.. xD
and so had ncc and then finally went home.. =]
i felt happier after messaging her the whole day and i guess.
our fates are predetermined.
so i guess we will go by how fate deem fit for us.
and so i am here. tired and doing nothing. hahas x=

anyways. i guess shall end here. kinda tired and need to speak to someone too. =D
alvinkang__`

helloooos =D
feeling pretty tired from coming back from school....
xDd but heck lahs.
i ponned at 11am -_-
blahs =D anyways i realised what type of normal acad i am going to
it's the thru train class that allows me to not take any N lvls but to take 2 o lvl subjects nxt year..
hahas. kinda good lah.
then sec5 take 3 or 4 subjects for o lvls.. i guess that this is going to be easy after awhile
i promise to work hard.
i guess mr goh is kinda good. he encourgaed all the people about goin normal. we all need something to spark off for us to wake up and study
and i guess that did the trick for me.
as i am going to study harder! x]]
so i not going let all my friends down!
esther sng actually encrouged me too x=
so ya, and a few people here and there. hehs (=
even JB was sad. ( wow ^^ )
but all i wish now is to work hard! x]
so ya. all the best to me then ((=
alvinkang__`

hmmm.
alot of shocking things happened recently.
1) i was dropped to normal acad. =x
2) my friends was dropped to normal acad. - -
3)alot of things just happened.

guess that this was unavoidable.
because of me slacking so long.

and and.
i wish to turn back time. so i won't be what i am today. but oh wells.
time can't turn
and i guess.
i have to embrace what has happened in the pass instead.

not to be saddened and that i have to. let go.
and to face the reality...
sigh. i hope more of this will happen to me. because.
i will then truely wake up.
i don't wanna be what i am anymore.
i want to change.


can somebody help me?.

alvinkang__`

two songs lyrics to express. before i blog.

I have been right all along

Now I’m hiding behind your stair case
Waiting to tell you something you’ll never believe
I've got a lot to tell you about me
That won't go over well...well I don't care
You can’t turn off, that you’re dead
You just deal with it (deal with it)

Thought I was dreaming
My heart stopped beating
But I’ve got this feeling
That I was put here for you
I’ve got a secretBut you won’t believe it
But I’ve got this feeling
That I was put here for you

I see the timeline of your whole life
I admit that I'm not more than the scratch I left behind
But there’s no point you can’t swim away from
that I know you feel. That won't let you go
You can’t turn off, that you’re dead
You just deal with it (deal with it)

Thought I was dreaming
My heart stopped beating
But I’ve got this feeling
That I was put here for you
I’ve got a secret
But you won’t believe it
But I’ve got this feeling
That I was put here for you

The ghost of what I left behind
Is dragging me right back next to you
Believe me
It’s the truth I swear
Believe me
It’s the truth I swear
Deal with it

Thought I was dreaming
My heart stopped beating
But I’ve got this feeling
That I was put here for you
I’ve got a secret
But you won’t believe it
But I’ve got this feeling
That I was put here for you


Seize the Day

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache overI see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time

But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past
I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you aroundI hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave youI see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to seeI beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then continues in the background]
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home






today's happenings.

hahas. today was boring. supposed to go cycling with jasper kim to check out sasncc's amazing race checkpoints. -_- then he didnt msg me / call me to tell me what time to meet/ blahs.
then didnt go.
then played maple awhile .. then bored. went to fifa07. ._.
play play finish then go ikea have dinner. blah.
didnt do much today. so yeah.
boring day.

yawn. i was wondering what life can bring you. and yeah.. i figured out that if i could ever have a time machine.
i'd do what i want to do. must do. just to reshape my life.
and that would means i wouldn't have to let people go.
and that means. i would be on a better path for my future.
and that means. i would not be what i am today.

so i guess. this life/dream's impossible.
so i gotta stop dreaming.
hahas. yeah. gotta stop here then.
alvinkang__`

hohohohoho

alot of things happened nowadays.

exams are over.!

had a long break after exams! (soon later going to have holidays already)

planning camps (ncc) having camps (pa camp)(obs camp)

rahh alot of activities. >.<>

got my ic recently (err. thursday.. 18oct) hahahahas then watched movies (balls of fury)
then had fun all around lah . freaking scared of exams results. but turned out kinda fine.

i passed (papers.. not overall)

chemistry.(amazing xD )

Dnt (paper!! thanks to drawings )

english ( paper 2 rocks ! )

chinese (duhh. clb. )

history! (hahah freaking amazing. considering the fact no listening was taken place in class and textbook was bought just the day before exams was held! )

SS! (heh kinda high LOL)

err. yeah.

i failed.

physics( i guess didn't focus on this subject enough)

maths (heh improvment was made! )

geog( i tried okay! 21/50)

err. thats all i guess. wow... this exam only fail 3 subjects (=

but overall still fail ):

sad sad.

i try to work harder nxt time! >.< !

kinda amazing how this exams turned out better. this actually shows some things about me being able to study ! xD.

oh oh (=

hahas. okays.. then i had fun all day.. like

messing around.

making noise.

disturbing juniors. (making them freaking disturbed)

hahahas. yah.

i still have not figured out what to do in life.

such as jobs. when to do this and that.

blah >.<

jobs i being thinking about

preschool teacher .=.='' (easy lah)

junior sch teacher ( kinda easy)

relive teacher (bursting easy) LOl

police force. (lol? )

full time armymen (lololol?)

err. some manager ( lolololol??)
this are possiblities

if i do well in playing drums. might become musician.

hahahas. i do not know . lets wait for god to decide for me. heh

now updates are getting lesser and lesser !

alvinkang!! remember to update more often lahhh ! lols.

hahaha recently had hamburger feast! LOL 6 burgers (=
pictures !

LOL funny burgers/ some other stuff we did.! no pics only (=

hahahaa

okayys then i shall blog soon! xD

alvinkang__`

holidays are coming =/
ahahas. XD
so much holidays before the real holidays. >< XD.
so cool. (:

bwahahs. anyways i got nothing much to do. yea. haha XD
alvinkang__`

i dint't know you got so much problems in you. i thought you could do it on your own. but i guess.
that . if you need any help. you can find me. ya. i'll be there to listen. but again. i will respect you decision for everything you do.

1 more day 'n i'm willing to spend the day with you .

hahahaha new keyboards :D
XD bought for 29 bucks =/
rahhakwakas.
today spent so much money =.=

anyways exams are over!! XD
wakakkas(: gonna have so much fun
lol rahhahas.

alvinkang__`

NOTE TO SELF. I MISS YOU TERRIBLY .
THIS IS WHAT I CALL A TRADEGY,
TRADEGY. COME BACK TO ME.

yawn.
exams are gonna be over soon.
xD left maths and geog
and now i gonna study 7hours. from 230-630, 7-10 xD
hahaha. 1 hour break ><
blah
alot of things happened.
i guess i feel so weird. i dunno how to describe it.
i think that falling in love is a weird thing.
and i am so hungry now.
need to eat my otahs.
buhbyes. :D


study hard!
left maths.
geog
and chem.
and dnt
"xD

jyjy all my friends(:

alvinkang__`

okayyyyyy
i am suppose to not emo. _ . trying again.
bwahhh
TT
_______________________________

okays.!
today had english paper 1 and paper 2...
paper 1 was sad.
paper 2 was. err. sadder? ._.

paper 1 i wrote about CHANGE.

can write anything. so i wrote about something.
a change in me due to ------- yea.... blah.
whatever.
suppose to forget that person.
what to do..... ><

change. how amazing about me.
i wrote 2 full pages, small words. and no leaving of any lines.(except paragraphs)
damn i am so remembering the past.
omgomomgomgomogmogmomgg!

blah. paper 2 was 'chimmm'
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about internet. yea. it really takes away friends .. etc.


blah.


nobody's gonna visit this blog.
since it is going to be read by myself.
and maybe some random people dropping by..


sigh . ._.
whats the point of all this. i wonder.
i wonder..

will there be any ending to this?.

alvinkang__`