a song before i begin.
Five Becomes Four


Needed some time
So I could find
A little strength to redefine
What I've become
What I have done
I never asked to be the one


I'm riding it out
This storm that you brought in
Bringing it down
One me around
For you, I'd go again


It's gotta be
Easy to see
What everyone takes out of me
Knocking me down
Dragging me out
How did you end up in that ground?


Did you run away?
Did you fall apart?
Did you see yourself
For what you are?
Will you be looking for it anymore
When five becomes four?
When you're all alone
With the melody
Do you close your eyes
And think of me?
Will you'll still hear me singing anymore
When five becomes four?

Try and put aside
Your history and pride
Maybe for one
Moment in time
We'll all be on your side


The story goes
Nobody knows
What it was like when you were through
Someone who cared
Out in the air
Didn't let them crash down anywhere


Did you run away?
Did you fall apart?
Did you see yourself
For what you are?
Will you be looking for it anymore
When five becomes four?
When you're all alone
With the melody
Do you close your eyes
And think of me?
Will you'll still hear me singing anymore
When five becomes four?


Remember the lie
Never said I
You were the reason I survived
Where did you go?
I need to knowI waited here, you never showed
It's gonna beHarder for me
I can't forgive so many things
When you were down
I was around
Why would you try and hurt me now?
Just tell me why
Just tell me why


(Did you run away?)
(Did you run away?)
(Did you run away?)


Did you run away?
Did you fall apart?
Did you see yourself
For what you are?
Will you be looking for it anymore
When five becomes four?
When you're all alone
With the melody
Do you close your eyes
And think of me?
Will you'll still hear me singing anymore
When five becomes four?
When five becomes four
When five becomes four






this song was sent to me by kiayang.
haha when listening to it
i guess it might mean about my life but then yet again not
i want to find the true meaning of my existence.
why i bother. but then. i guess that all these questions are left unknown until when i am about to die.
i really hope that what i wished for nowadays will happen.
friends have being supportive of me dropping to normal.
and they really encouraged me. and didn't put me in a spot whereas i am lower standard then them.
to me friends are still friends. true friends do not lie. and i do truly have true friends (=

okays about today
end of sch. i had fun. class party in class. had fun. then i had end of turn assembly.. xD
and so had ncc and then finally went home.. =]
i felt happier after messaging her the whole day and i guess.
our fates are predetermined.
so i guess we will go by how fate deem fit for us.
and so i am here. tired and doing nothing. hahas x=

anyways. i guess shall end here. kinda tired and need to speak to someone too. =D
alvinkang__`